Decisions, decisions, decisions...

I am an indecisive person and it is driving me crazy.

A few months ago as I was thinking about what I want to do this next fall, I remember asking to be given a CHOICE. My reasons behind all of this were fine. In the past, I have been very fortunate to not have to make a lot of choices, the things that have fallen in my lap have been the things I was meant to do. For example: getting into Mount Royal College's Interior Design program (it's the only University program I applied for), Northwestern (the next and only school I applied to), the job at the Drop-In Centre, China, etc. Each step I have taken has immediately followed the previous one and rarely have I felt what it is like to reach a fork in the road. Though all of this has been WONDERFUL, it has left me feeling like I am not really involved in all of the choices I make and the things that happen in my life...if you know what I mean.

So I asked for a choice and now I'm kind of regretting that decision. I've been offered one job and have interviewed for another and IF it comes down to making a choice I have no clue what I am going to do. Do I choose job A or job B or do I not choose either of them and wait for an unknown C to appear?? Both A and B are good...they're GREAT even. So I have no clue...

As I look ahead and think about what I WANT do there are two things that stand out. I want to work in Residence Life/Student Development at a College or University. At the same time, I want to work in Design or Marketing...or even at a Gallery. Could those be any different? I know that I'm only 25, but it's beginning to feel like what I choose now will determine what I am can do later on. If I accept a job in Res Life does that mean that I can't do Design later on? Can I somehow combine the passions that I have, or will one be reserved for my "free time"?? Anyway...just some random thoughts!


Ps. My last official day at the Drop-In Centre is May 18th! I imagine I'll still be at Pottery Barn through the summer - but I have begun to wrap things up at the D.I. It's a little nerve wracking to be without a job for the summer, but kind of exciting at the same time!